Enlightment in Schreber
Enlightenment in Schreber
Daniel Paul Schreber
Daniel Paul Schreber was a German judge who gained notoriety due to his memoir, “Memoirs of a Nervous Patient” .”Denkwürdigkeiten eines Nervenkranken”., published in 1903.
Birth: Daniel Paul Schreber was born on July 25 , 1842, in Leipzig, Germany.
Education and Career : Schreber studied Law and Medicine at the University of Leipzig. After completing his studies, he became a judge and worked as a jurist in Leipzig.
Mental Illness : In 1884, Schreber began to show signs of mental illness. He was diagnosed with paranoia, a psychotic disorder characterized by delusions of persecution and grandeur, among other symptoms. Schreber believed that God was communicating directly with him and that he had a special mission on Earth.
Hospitalization : Due to the severity of his mental condition, Schreber was admitted to a psychiatric hospital in Sonnenstein, where he spent several years.
“Memoirs of a Nervous Patient”: During his time in the hospital, Schreber began writing his memoirs. In 1903, his book “Memoirs of a Nervous Patient” was published. In that book, he described his experiences during his illness and his delusional beliefs. 6. Legacy: Schreber’s book became a famous work in psychiatry and psychoanalysis, as Sigmund Freud and other psychoanalysts studied it in depth. Freud, in particular, used Schreber’s experiences as a case study in his work on psychosis and delusions. 7. Death: Daniel Paul Schreber died on April 14, 1911, in Dresden, Germany.
God and immortality
A crisis of the kingdoms of God? Soul murder
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Personal experiences during the first nervous illness and the beginning of the second
Continuation. Language of nerves .inner voices.. Coercion to think . Emasculation , a postulate of the Order of the World in the face of circumstances
Personal experiences .continued.. Visions . “Visionaries”
Personal experiences .continued.; strange morbid manifestations . Visions
Personal experiences during the stay at Dr. Pierson. “Tried Souls”
Transfer to Sonnenstein. Changes in the relationship with the rays. “Transcription system”
Personal experiences at Sonnenstein. “Disturbances” as a phenomenon concomitant with contact with lightning. “Shaping the state of mind”
Damage to physical integrity through miracles
Content of the voices’ conversation. “Conception of souls”. Language of souls. Continuation of personal experiences;
Voluptuousness of the soul as a factor of attraction. Resulting phenomena
“Tried souls”; your destination . Personal experiences .continued.
Games with men and miracles. Screams for help . Talking birds
Coercion to think. Its manifestations and related phenomena
Continuation of the previous one; “ draw” in the sense of the language of souls
God and the processes of creation; spontaneous generation; miraculous birds. “Direction of gaze” . Examination system
Continuation of the previous one. Divine omnipotence and human free will
Egocentric conception of the rays in relation to my person . Further configuration of personal relationships
Beatitude and voluptuousness in their reciprocal relations. Consequences of these relationships on personal behavior
Final considerations. Future perspectives
Man, woman, Jouissance, body Voluptuous and Beatitude God and Immortality: future Free will Know…
Man, woman, Jouissance, body Voluptuous and Beatitude God and Immortality: future Free will Knowledge
Language Game
Brought into the world , abandonment,helplessness
Surplus Jouissance , Body
Creature future, procreation
How do I maintain myself as an I
Imaginary
Constitution of the Subject
Fearing for my life , for my virility and later for my understanding…
Fearing for my life , for my virility and later for my understanding
The wandering Jew (in the sense here indicated) must have been emasculated (transformed into a woman…
The wandering Jew (in the sense here indicated) must have been emasculated (transformed into a woman) in order to be able to bear children . Emasculation occurred as follows: the external sexual organs (scrotum and virile member) were retracted into the body and transformed into the corresponding female sexual organs, simultaneously transforming the internal sexual organs. It occurred during a sleep that lasted a few centuries, as a modification of the bone structure (pelvis, etc.) was also necessary. There was also an involution or inversion of the development process, which in the human embryo takes place in the fourth or fifth month of pregnancy, depending on whether nature wants to give the future child the male or female sex.
It is known that both sexes are present in the first months of pregnancy and that, according to obse…
It is known that both sexes are present in the first months of pregnancy and that, according to observation, the characteristics of the sex that cannot develop, such as male breasts, remain as rudimentary organs at a lower level of development . The ability to perform the aforementioned miracle of emasculation is characteristic of the rays of the inferior god (Ariman); the rays of the superior god (Ormuzd) have the ability to restore masculinity in certain conditions
The miracles that most closely evoked a situation still in accordance with the Order of the World se…
The miracles that most closely evoked a situation still in accordance with the Order of the World seemed to be those that had some relation to an emasculation being carried out in my body. To this context belongs in particular all kinds of changes in my sexual parts , which sometimes (particularly in bed) appeared as strong signs of an effective retraction of the virile member, but frequently, when impure rays prevailed, as a softening of the member, which was approaching almost complete dissolution ;in addition, the extraction , by miracle, of beard hair, in particular the mustache, and, finally, a modification of the entire stature ( decrease in body size) — probably based on a contraction of the spinal column and perhaps also of the bone substance of the thighs.
This last miracle, coming from the lower god (Ariman), was regularly announced with the words: “What…
This last miracle, coming from the lower god (Ariman), was regularly announced with the words: “What if I made them a little smaller?” I myself had the impression that my body had become six to eight centimeters shorter, thus approaching female height .
Dramatic news arrived from all directions, that from then on this or that star, this or that constel…
Dramatic news arrived from all directions, that from then on this or that star, this or that constellation would have needed to be “ abandoned ”; sometimes it was said that Venus had also been “ flooded ”, sometimes that from now on the entire Solar System should be “ unmoored ”, sometimes that Cassiopeia (its entire constellation) should be condensed into a single Sun, sometimes that the Pleiades might still be could be saved etc.
Flooded, unmoored, abandoned, condensed
It was the idea that it must be really good to be a woman submitting to coitus . This idea was so fo…
It was the idea that it must be really good to be a woman submitting to coitus . This idea was so foreign to my entire way of feeling that, I allow myself to say, in full conscience I would have rejected it with such indignation that in fact, after everything I have experienced in the meantime, I cannot rule out the possibility that it Iwas inspired by outside influences that were at play.
What is certain is that these beatitudes were consumed, that is, the nerves in question, as a result…
What is certain is that these beatitudes were consumed, that is, the nerves in question, as a result of the force of attraction, were absorbed into my body and acquired the character of nerves of feminine voluptuousness , giving my body a more or less feminine mark. , and my skin, particularly, the typical female softness.
My sleep had become lightning sleep .
The idea of “ leaving me alone ” was always decisive in this, that is, abandoning me, something that…
The idea of “ leaving me alone ” was always decisive in this, that is, abandoning me, something that, at the time discussed here, it was believed to be possible through the emasculation and the abandonment of my body like the body of a female prostitute; sometimes also through murder and later through the destruction of my understanding (becoming imbecile)
Almost the entire population of patients at the clinic, therefore at least several dozen people, bore the mark of personalities who in life had been more or less close to me .
The voices continually tried to turn me against this head nurse; On the first day I was asked to sim…
The voices continually tried to turn me against this head nurse; On the first day I was asked to simply address him as “W.”, eliminating with offensive intent the predicate of nobility; At first I didn’t have the slightest inclination to do it, but I ended up giving in, to free myself from the pressure of the voices. On another occasion, I even slapped him, I don’t remember why; I only know that the voices demanded it from me, because he had wanted something unacceptable from me, and they continued insulting me because of my supposed lack of manly courage , until I began to carry out the act previously described.
I spent the all day engrossed in conversation with the voices and amazed by the prodigious things that were happening around me.
M. and Sch. Sometimes they would also discharge a part of their body onto mine, in the form of a put…
M. and Sch. Sometimes they would also discharge a part of their body onto mine, in the form of a putrid mass, with the aim of “ getting out ”. M. often placed himself on my arm, like a kind of “great nerve” — a kind of gelatinous mass about the size of a cherry — where, like the other nerves and rays, he in a certain way shared my thoughts and of my sensory impressions . The idea of escaping as much as possible from the pulling force of my over excited nerves
Books or other types of notes were being made, and for years now all my thoughts have been transcrib…
Books or other types of notes were being made, and for years now all my thoughts have been transcribed , all my expressions of language, all my personal objects, all the things I own or are in my vicinity, all people I relate to, etc.
Day after day, hour after hour, they uninterruptedly accumulated corpse poison or other putrefying matter in my body, brought by the rays, with the intention of finally crushing me and depriving me of my understanding .
“But then, he hasn’t been emasculated yet?” Not infrequently, the divine rays, alluding to the suppo…
“But then, he hasn’t been emasculated yet?” Not infrequently, the divine rays, alluding to the supposedly imminent emasculation, believed they could mock me as “Miss Schreber”; some of the expressions at the time frequently used and repeated to exhaustion were: “You must be represented as one given over to voluptuous debauchery ” etc. etc. I myself felt the danger of emasculation naturally as an ignominy that threatened me for a long time, that is, while there was talk of sexual abuse of my body by other men.
For years now, the rays, in the absence of their own thoughts , have essentially not known how to ta…
For years now, the rays, in the absence of their own thoughts , have essentially not known how to talk aboutanything other than the miracles themselves, attributing to my nerves the ideas of fear that correspond to them, but in a false way (for example: “If only my fingers weren’t paralyzed”, or: “If only my kneecap wasn’t injured”), or even cursing any activity I begin to engage in (for example: “If only it would stop this damn playing the piano”, as soon as I sit down at the piano, or even: “If only it would stop this damn cleaning of nails” as soon as I start cleaning my nails). On top of that, there’s an enormous effrontery — I can’t use another expression — of wanting me to express out loud , as if it were my own thoughts, this falsified nonsense; so that to the phrase “If only it would stop this damn playing the piano” they added: “Why don’t you say it (out loud)?” — followed by the response: “Because I’m stupid, something like that” or “Because I’m afraid of Mr. M.”
It was believed, with the transcription, to be possible to exhaust my entire reserve of thoughts …
It was believed, with the transcription, to be possible to exhaust my entire reserve of thoughts .
But the main reason for my immobility did not come from the lack, which was real, of appropriate objects for carrying out any activity, but from the fact that I considered absolute passivity to be almost a religious obligation .
The imposition that the rays imposed on me, of total immobility (“Not the slightest movement”, the frequently repeated phrase told me), in turn, according to my convictions, must be related to the fact that God, for so to speak, he was not capable of dealing with living men, being used to dealing only with corpses or, in any case, with sleeping (dreaming) men.
I made this sacrifice because, even though I had already had several proofs of the “policy of half m…
I made this sacrifice because, even though I had already had several proofs of the “policy of half measures” that God carried out against me, at that time I still didn’t want to believe in God’s true ill will towards me .
They couldn’t help but see in me a person fallen into stuporous imbecility . And yet, what an immens…
They couldn’t help but see in me a person fallen into stuporous imbecility . And yet, what an immense distance between this appearance and reality: I lived with the awareness — and I am still convinced today that this awareness coincides with the truth — of having to solve one of the most difficult tasks ever proposed to a human being. and having to carry out a sacred fight for the supreme goods of humanity . But, unfortunately, the deceptive appearance to the contrary resulted in an enormous amount of indignities in the treatment meted out to me, and under which I suffered greatly, for years on end, and which at times made me completely forget my social position and high status. position I held in life.
Often, nurse M. would send me back to the bathtub at the moment I wanted to get out of the bath, aft…
Often, nurse M. would send me back to the bathtub at the moment I wanted to get out of the bath, after spending the appropriate amount of time in it, or in the morning, when it was time to wake up, for reasons I don’t know, he would send me back. to bed, or even during the day, if I dozed for a while sitting at the table, they would wake me up by pulling my beard; the same nurse combed my hair during the shower with a fine-toothed comb — and precisely at a time when streams of lightning were making grooves in my skull . At meals, for a while, they used to put a napkin around my neck, like a child.
The food and drink then ingested fell directly into the abdominal cavity and hips, a phenomenon, as …
The food and drink then ingested fell directly into the abdominal cavity and hips, a phenomenon, as incredible as it may seem, that was completely beyond doubt for me, given the clarity of perception .
With total disregard, souls threw putrefied matter that produced the putrefaction of my lower abdomen into my belly, so much so that I more than once believed I was rotting alive, and the odor of rot emanated from my mouth in the most disgusting way.
Whose voices I heard at my feet
One can imagine what unpleasant sensations all these processes must generate, when one considers tha…
One can imagine what unpleasant sensations all these processes must generate, when one considers that the rays of the entire world — mechanically fixed at their starting point — keep revolving around a single head trying to tear it apart or burst it, like in quartering.
The rays seemed not to understand that a man who really exists must be somewhere after all.
Some of the rays began to taste penetration into my body
Those who were responsible for opening and closing the eyes stood above the eyes, on the eyebrows, a…
Those who were responsible for opening and closing the eyes stood above the eyes, on the eyebrows, and from there they pulled the eyelids up and down, as they pleased, using very thin threads, similar to threads of web. spider. Here too, as a rule, there were a “little Flechsig ” and a “little Von W. ”, and next to these also a “homunculus” that had come from the soul, at the time still existing, of Daniel Fürchtegott Flechsig. When sometimes I didn’t want to allow this lifting and lowering of my eyelids and reacted against it, this attitude provoked the indignation of the “homunculi”, and then I was greeted with the expression “ whore ”; when I sometimes tried to wipe them from my eyes with a sponge, this was considered by the rays as a kind of crime against the miraculous power of God. In fact, this cleaning had a merely temporary result, as the “homunculi” were always placed again. Other “homunculi” at that time almost always gathered in large numbers in my body.
Since I started playing chess and playing the piano again , these have been my two main activities a…
Since I started playing chess and playing the piano again , these have been my two main activities at the sanatorium for the entire five years since. Playing the piano, in particular, was invaluable to me, and still is to this day; I must say that I can hardly imagine how I could have endured the compulsion to think with all its secondary phenomena during those five years if I had not been able to play the piano. While I play the piano, the wild chatter of the voices that speak to me becomes muffled — this is, alongside physical exercise, one of the most appropriate forms of the so-called thought of not thinking about anything, of which they wanted to deprive me, deceiving me . , pretending that it was about the musical thought of not thinking about anything, as they said in the language of souls
Conviction that the Order of the World imperiously demanded my emasculation, whether it pleased me p…
Conviction that the Order of the World imperiously demanded my emasculation, whether it pleased me personally or not, and therefore, for rational reasons , there was nothing left for me but to reconcile myself with the idea of being transformed into a woman.
One of the locutions repeated countless times since then, with each manifestation of the voluptuousness of the soul, said: “Aren’t you ashamed in front of your wife ?”, or, in an even more vulgar way: “Here is a president of the Court of Appeal who lets himself to be fucked… ”. But, however revolting these voices were even to me, and however frequent the opportunities to express my righteous indignation in some way, in the thousands of times these locutions were repeated, over time I no longer allowed myself to be confused and from then on I recognized it as necessary and healthy for all parties: for myself and for the rays.
I would like to see which man, having to choose between becoming an idiot with male or a woman gifte…
I would like to see which man, having to choose between becoming an idiot with male or a woman gifted with spirit, would not prefer the latter alternative. But it is in this way and only in this way that the question arisesfor me. The exercise of my old profession, to which I dedicated myself with all my soul, any other objective of male ambition , any other valorization of my intellectual energy in the service of humanity, now, given the direction things had taken, all of this have been taken from me;
Other expressions of the lower god were partly addressed to me, partly— spoken in a sense through my…
Other expressions of the lower god were partly addressed to me, partly— spoken in a sense through my head —addressed to his colleague, the higher god; of the first type was, for example, the expression already remembered: “Do not forget that it is linked to the conception of souls”; of the latter, for example, the phrases: “Do not forget that all representation is an absurdity”, or “Do not forget that the end of the world is a contradiction in itself”, “Now you have made atmospheric conditions dependent on thought of a single man”, or “Now you have made any sacred activity impossible” (that is, through the various miracles that made it difficult to play the piano, play chess, etc.).
In a few cases, very rare indeed, they went so far as to admit a kind of confession of their own gui…
In a few cases, very rare indeed, they went so far as to admit a kind of confession of their own guilt , for example: “If only I hadn’t placed him among men made in haste”, or “These are the consequences of famous politics of souls”, or “Now what will become of this damn story”, or “If the damn jokes with men would stop”. Every now and then, in these words, the confession was made: “We lack an attitude”, that is, that attitude that we should demonstrate towards any good man , even towards the most abject sinner, preserving the means of purification, in accordance with with the Order of the World
Brought into the world , abandonment, helplessness
Surplus Jouissance , Body
Creature future, procreation
How do I maintain myself as an I
A truth of experience, for analysis, is that the question of its existence arises for the subject, n…
A truth of experience, for analysis, is that the question of its existence arises for the subject, not in the form of the anguish that it raises at the level of the self, and which is only an element of its procession, but as a articulate question: “What am I in this?” , concerning their sex and their contingency in being, that is, they being a man or a woman, on the one hand, and on the other, the fact that they could be neither one, combining its mystery and linking them to the symbols of procreation and death. That the question of their existence floods the subject, supports them, invades them or even completely tears them apart, is what tensions, suspensions and fantasies they encounter and testify to the analyst; but it remains to be said that it is in the form of elements of private discourse that this issue in the Other is articulated. Because it is that these phenomena are ordered in figures of discourses that they have fixed symptoms, which are legible and resolved when deciphered.
As we can see by observing that it is not related to the deprivation of a penis, but a commandment t…
As we can see by observing that it is not related to the deprivation of a penis, but a commandment to be the phallus, that the patient is destined to become a woman. Undoubtedly, the divination of the unconscious warns the subject, from a very early age, that, given the impossibility of being the phallus that the mother lacks, the solution remains to be the woman that mankind lacks.
This is precisely the meaning of the fantasy - whose relationship was greatly highlighted in his writing and which we mentioned above - in the incubation period of his second illness, that is, the idea that “it would be beautiful to be a woman at the time of copulation”. This commonplace of Schreberian literatureis fixed here in its place.
The self is an Other, paranoia, it makes a hole, without edges, it makes no sense
He’s a man who lets himself be fucked. He is a man who dresses as a woman. Is he a man or a woman?…
He’s a man who lets himself be fucked. He is a man who dresses as a woman. Is he a man or a woman? What is a man, what is a woman? He is a man who uses makeup, his body, his appearance, his voice From the hole that it is possible to cross Go from one to another Crossing, transforming, upsetting, overflowing
Surplus Jouissance
Surplus Jouissance: exchange, experiencing feminine jouissance, not allowed in external reality, withdrawing into internal reality, direct relationship with the Other.
Schreber’s mistake: putting himself in this position just for God
Language Game
Man, woman, motherhood, virility, understanding Voluptuousness and Beatitude God and Immortality: future, Immobility as a religious obligation Flooded, unmoored, abandoned, condensed Free will, Knowledge, Mockery Body, Without edges, rot, Cursing, coercion to think, in the open Thoughts, senses, matter Non-sense, what makes a hole, what destabilizes, inconsistency, discomfort that invades, without edges, collapse Subject appears between signifiers Presence-absence
God and Immortality: Ahriman and Ormuzd
Personal experiences, emasculation, bearing children, transformation of genitalia
Abandoned
it must be really good to be a woman submitting to coitus
Beatitude, nerves of female voluptuousness
Leaving me alone, emasculation, abandonment, murder, destruction of understanding
Requirement of voices
Theory of Knowledge
Transcription of thoughts Mockery, voluptuous debauchery, sexual abuse Cursed voices, Religious obligation, God’s ill will Mission: having to solve one of the most difficult tasks ever proposed to a human being and having to carry out a sacred fight for the supreme goods of humanity Rotting alive Not thinking about anything Guilt, lack an attitude
